When i grow up i dont wanna grow up

Its amazing how many people i have helped out without even trying just by observing me and my lifestyle from a distance and they reach out to me and ask me how i do it and i have the slightest clue i am actually being an influence to any of these people. My younger Brother is a prime example and a few years ago he was going through a rough patch and had all these tasks and goals he wanted to achieve and he wasnt quite where he wanted to be and sunk into a depression but he made a bold move to spend about a week with me and he always tells me that spending that week with me pretty much changed his life. I have never felt prouder to be able to be a positive role model to my brother. He told me his problems and i told him what was the big deal and that why is he worrying so much and that at the end of the day nothing really matters so never miss out on life.

We both shared some of our problems and he asked me that how do i get out of the bed with all those issues to deal with and i explained to him about life being short and that you just cant afford to let it take you down with you. He has since got a lot better. His panic attacks have reduced to a minimum and is living life a lot more and appreciating life for what it is and attending to his problems gradually which is what life is all about and its not about putting the burden of the World on your shoulder and self appointing one self as Captain Save em.

A Lady friend of mine called me out of the blue a couple of days ago and from the sound of things i could tell she was tipsy and she got to talking and asked me whether i have any plans in a couple of weeks and i responded that i really dont plan ahead much so i cant commit and she told me how much of a positive influence i had been in her life and i am thinking to myself that what all did i do ? I remember about 4 years ago when i met her giving her advise about a new job she was going to start but she really didnt like it because it was not one of those Admirable Big Corporate jobs but i knew a few things about the industry enough to guide her right that she should stay in that field because it is financially rewarding which is something i will share with a random stranger. She became very successful in this career and makes tons of money and every now and then when i speak to her i offer advise like save a decent amount of money because its not a job you make a career out of and that you need an exit plan and when the time comes you will have enough money to decide not to do anything for a couple of years and wont lose your shirt. Other things i told her had to do with finding time to pamper herself and to learn to relax more and take mini escapes to rejuvenate her body and soul . Other than that its just the regular advise i will give a friend so when she explained to me that besides her Immediate Family that i am the only person she trusts that has her back and does not have an agenda i was startled and empowered at the same time and felt the compassion in her voice and was very emotional.

My Friend invited me to help Celebrate her Birthday with her in Vegas just because she wanted to spend it with close and good friends. I told her that i just got back from a Vegas trip and it was interesting but i will love to usher in her Birthday in SinCity even if it means i have to go twice in 4 weeks but thats what friends are for.

I live life by my own rules. I am fully in control of what i do . I dont set untattainable goals. I am not obsessed with money and/or fame. I love being around Positive energy be it in the form of a person or in the form of an ambience. I dont collect enemies. I do silly things to remind me i am a kid at heart. I dance like i am having the best time in the world and its blissful. I strive for Simplicity in everything i do and thats just what i do. I wasnt always like this. I used to be married and did some stuff just because it was expected of couples.

Some might say i am scorned and bitter but i really am not but after the marriage didnt work i decided to pay more attention to myself and learn more about myself and what makes me tick. Its funny how old colleagues and/or friends will call me up and ask aobout my escapades and trips to exotic places because they claim they live vicariously through my stories which is very exaggerated because i dont see my life as something that special but to each is own right.

I chatted with a lady a few hours ago and when we got deep into the conversation i realized she had so many rules and ways about her that i told her we wont have fun together. She explained to me how she did her fair share of partying in college and i asked her that does that mean she is too old or to sophisticated for a dance club? I can dance anywhere and i also enjoy the simple things and thats why one of my favorite phrases is "Dont sweat the small stuff". I know its tough explaining this to a Type A Persoanlity who is all about the drive and here i am in the back seat trying to stop and smell the roses but hey such is life.

This led to my blog topic and based on what it says i dont wanna grow up even when i am old i want to be able to be a kid at heart and simply put ... ENJOY LIFE..... CARPE DIEM......